From Clicks To Bricks
Depression, identity crysis, and lucrativeness
Never in my life there was a year when I was so depressed while at the same time producing and gaining so much — materially, and also in terms of relationships with other people. But internally, I was falling and suffocating, because my expectations didn’t meet the reality.
I think a lot of this has to do with the unexpected growth of my side business which strayed me away from what I really wanted to be and focus on, and unexpectedly ate up all my free time.
Instead of spending my time to focus on finding my next idea worth pursuing and building an online business around it (i.e. “clicks”), I spent my creative time producing and shipping concrete sculptures (i.e. “bricks”).
My silly hobby is now a true business, bringing enough revenue I could probably survive on it.
But being a software developer and indie hacker by heart, do I really want to continue doing this?
I’m not so sure.
That’s the identity crysis I mentioned. On the one hand, with my knowledge I have a shot of building an online business with an unlimited upside and predictable revenue, while on the other hand, I have this brick and mortar business which can’t really scale and it constantly needs routine work.
What should I focus on?
I still can’t decide. But I did decide I sure as heck don’t want to deal with production and shipping anymore. I’m glad to announce I’m soon bringing a part time person to help with these things I don’t wanna do anymore so I can focus on development of new products and marketing. These are the things I do enjoy and life will be happier for me that way.
In 2020 I did a couple of new art pieces. Somehow my Instagram account grew past 4000 followers. People seem to really enjoy concrete artworks.
Also, there’s someone who offered me 1k EUR for an art piece. We’re still finalizing the deal. I don’t really want to sell it, but I do want to get that sweet validation.